Lately, i find myself dreaming of my daughter. Alot.

Some might not think this is weird; but i do not have a daughter. i dont have a kid. ive never given birth or been pregnant, or adopted or anything. Its weird. Shes about 4 years old, and always has on a sundress. she has dark shiny wavy hair, and beautiful light brown eyes. which i find odd, because usually im totally against brown hair or eyes, (i think theyre too common and i like people that stand out) but on her, its gorgeous. shes perfect. before recently i always pictured my daughter with light hair and blue or green eyes and always at a pre-teen/teen age. I’m kind of taken aback by these dreams. because i want to meet her, but i do not want a kid right now. Idk, we’ll see how things pan out.

On an unrelated side-note, i feel like my boyfriend and i are growing apart. not emotionally, i love him more than anything. but physically. i mean hes moving to quarts hill. he dosent want to continue going to school, and get an apprenticeship at some body piercing place in Santa Clarita. Which means hes either gonna move there, or commute there. both are not so fun. And lately we seem to be butting heads about alot more. like were losing things that we have in common. *sigh* it blows. OH. and in the dream, he is my daughters father. hes where she gets her beautiful hair and eyes from. and her fair complexity from me.

GAH! I’m in such a state of confusion.

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