Its my life, don’t you forget.











{September 23, 2008}   I’m Leaving!

I’m Leaving for Virginia, tomorrow, 2 am.
Then we’re (me and my family) gonna drive through all the states up to New York, NY. Visiting all my East coast family, historic landmarks and Cities, and many many hotels and gas stations.
….
Yes, quite the adventure. All in a rental car full of 5 people and all their luggage.

wooooooo!

haha, as bothersome as some of it seems, i’m jazzed.

So, Ill still be able to get online and such when im there, but just not as much. so anyone who avidly reads my posts can have a short vacay along with me :) lol (all .5 of the people who read these things…. lol)

I’ll be back October 4th, 2009.

……. ;p jaykaaaay. October 4th, 2008.

(lame joke, i know, i know.
)

peeeeace outtt



{September 15, 2008}   Such a fuck up…

im pretty sure ive succeeded in having everyone hate me to some degree…

My boyfriend wont talk to me, and i’m too stubborn and ashamed to start a conversation with him.

My family thinks im just being difficult and yell at me or ask me if i need to see a doctor mockingly.

My life is unfolding just like i knew it would.

I cant cry anymore. These past few days have been filled with anonymous tears. after the night before last, i feel like shit. i definitely took it too far, most likely. But i wasnt scared. i was numb. i didnt care. for once in my life i didnt give a damn about what anyone would think. anyway. now im just kind of… exsisting. im not living.theres more to life than what im going through.



{September 14, 2008}   I’m going to

Probably start making my posts private. at least, my very personal ones.

FYI…



{September 13, 2008}   Love song for you…

My hearts an invitation, with your name, written on the front.

Decorated with the finest touch, Made to cheer you up.

I know that every bone inside me, strives to be with you.

Cause my heart cant keep inside the joy, let alone the truth.

You fascinate the mind that goes about & lives inside my head,

Alive with images of you and me, Lying in our bed.

Our kids will grow to tell of how their parents showed them how to love.

And they’ll be oh so wise, with hazel eyes, and their mothers sense of love.

And did you know that you were, all that i imagined, & look at all thats happened.

I give my heart, my only, everything to you, that is what I do.

You smile like you know you warm my heart and every inch of me.

I’d tell you more but darling with my breath, you stole away my speech.

I’ve nothing left to offer but what is true, & i wrote it down on paper, labeled ‘Love Song for You.’

We’ll build a house of love, with our bare hands & watch it come to life.

And we’ll have pool parties with lots of trees that shade us in the light.

Our moms will have their fun, and talk about the childhoods that came.

Our dads will cheer and scream, and have their fun, as they watch the game.

Our hearts will open up and form to one as they speak the truth,

Of how the lord has blessed us with the love that i get to share with you.

Snow White and Cinderella never had a fairy tale so nice,

And we’ll get critisize ’cause Disney lives have got nothing on our life.

Did you know that you were all that i imagined, & look at all thats happened.

I give my heart, my only, everything to you, that is what I do.

You smile like you know you hold my heart and every inch of me.

I’d tell you more but darling with my breath, you stole away my speech.

I’ve nothing left to offer but what is true, & i wrote it down on paper, labeled ‘Love Song for You.’

Did you know that you were all that i imagined, & look at all thats happened.

I give my heart, my only, everything to you, that is what I do.

You smile like you know you hold my heart and every inch of me.

I’d tell you more but darling with my breath, you stole away my speech.

I’ve nothing left to offer but what is true, & i wrote it down on paper, labeled ‘Love Song for You.’

This is my love song for you.

This is my love song for you,

This is my love song for you,

This is my love song for you.

Love Song For You, By Mike Coia. It’s a beautiful song, So please visit Coia’s Myspace and buy the song.  These are the Lyrics as best represented by Myself. I couldn’t find the true lyrics online, so I apologize if any of it is wrong.



{September 13, 2008}   Rap is Crap.

“Rap is crap.

You know, totally whack!

I mean really; Its fact.

How am I expected to-

I’ve not been directed to-

This is gonna suck,

I’m seriously fucked.

All i wanted was to come to school,

LEARN,

But now all i do is yearn,

Yearn to be gone, free, escaped from here,

Home, Hell, nowhere near,

this class.

Cause it’s whack.

Its like Rap- We went over this already-

Rap. Is. Crap.”

Class assignment where some students had to teach the class. They decided to “teach” us about Rap.  … they failed. lol



et cetera